urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g I know not what I do. lunaticdead9g 2007-09-12T02:38:25Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:54819 2007-09-12T02:38:25Z 2007-09-12T02:38:25Z the world lost an amazing person. <br /><br />Floating Through Every One Is Some Thing Great.<br />Tug Push Swallow Fear Here Today Bleeds Waste.<br />Break Free Fly Away Dont Wait One Day.<br />Needs Of The Many Out Weigh The Needs Of The Few Or The OnE.<br /> - Shane Bartlett -<br /><br />RIP<br />Shane Marcus Bartlett "JoJo"<br />January 8, 1989 - September 9, 2007<br />I Love You. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:53654 2007-02-03T17:50:45Z 2007-02-03T17:50:45Z my moms finally gone off the deep end.<br /><br />she's missing some jewelry so she's going around screaming that she doesnt want a thief in her house and all this other bullshit.<br /><br />she's trying really fucking hard to kick me out...give me over to my grandparents and yet...she doesnt wanna get off her fucking ass and drive me there. thats a bit dumb of her aint it? she wants me out, and yet, she wont DO anything about putting me out. <br /><br />to be perfectly honest, i dont know how to handle this situation, because for once, i actually didnt take anything from her, and yet she doesnt believe me...<br /><br />my grandparents think i should apologize to her for calling her a crazy bitch, but i think i was in the right there. she's accusing me of being a thief, she's trying to kick me out of the house, and i should be apologizing? helllllll fucking no. <br /><br />i just need to find a job. asap. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:50760 2006-12-24T22:57:07Z 2006-12-24T22:57:07Z "A cigarette is the perfect type of perfect pleasure. It is exquisite, and it leaves one unsatisfied. What more can one want?"<br /> -Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:46150 2006-09-02T01:17:08Z 2006-09-02T01:17:08Z school starts in 4 days. <br /><br />im already planning on when to skip, this is ridiculous. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:44894 2006-08-08T12:36:32Z 2006-08-08T12:36:32Z i passed my driving test. <br /><br />but then...after all the driving i've been doing these last few years to get to this point ... i realize that i dont even want my license and im bored with driving.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:43481 2006-07-13T23:37:11Z 2006-07-13T23:37:11Z i got my zen micro. yay.<br /><br />its all perrttyyyyyy.<br /><br />my contacts had to be "specially made" so they're not going to be ready until next monday. that sucks ass. but i'll deal with it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:43262 2006-07-08T18:32:34Z 2006-07-08T18:32:34Z i dyed my hair this morning. <br /><br />tuesday, wednesday at the latest im getting my contacts. <br /><br />friday july 21st im taking my driving test.<br /><br />then im buying an ipod...or something along the lines of an ipod.<br /><br />isnt this just an exciting summer? no. i didnt think so. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:42606 2006-07-05T13:20:32Z 2006-07-07T18:38:37Z today...college.<br /><br />tomorrow...optomotrist appointment. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:42201 2006-06-26T04:48:37Z 2006-06-26T04:48:37Z tomorrow - pennsylvania. and then ... im home for the rest of the summer.<br /><br />thank god.<br /><br />im so tired of moving around all over the place. it really does get tiring after a while.<br /><br />at the beginning i was all excited because whoa i wasnt going to be home all the time .... but now that i think about it, i really dont like it all that much. its too much stress for one summer. <br /><br />i'll be glad when all this moving around shit is done and over with. im actually looking forward to college this summer, a chance to lose some weight. 3 gym classes. it shouldnt be too bad. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:41623 2006-06-09T01:24:18Z 2006-06-09T01:24:18Z im leaving tomorrow morning. <br /><br />i'll be gone until june 25th ... and then i leave again on the 26th until july 2nd. <br /><br />i'll hopefully still have access to the internet down in alabama ... hopefully. <br /><br />i'll talk to everyone when i get back...<br /><br />wish me luck on that plane ... im terrified. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:41343 2006-06-05T03:26:44Z 2006-06-05T03:26:44Z like whoa.<br /><br />i get my test results tomorrow, i hope i passed them both. if i passed my science test then there's hope for me yet. if i passed this test then i can possibly pass the final and finally pass the class. <br /><br />wish me luck people. <br /><br />im going to need it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:38988 2006-05-04T02:13:11Z 2006-05-04T02:13:11Z i went to the dentist today, end of story. im scared shitless right now. i have one of my bottom wisdom teeth removed because the bitch decided to grow into my nerve. that shits scary, if i let it keep growing it'll penetrate my nerve and paralyze half my face. if i get it pulled there's always the chance that they'll fuck something up and half my face will still end up paralyzed. im getting the bitch pulled though. the dentist lady told me i had to go to an oral surgeon...a professional, because she was too scared to touch my tooth. plus, to top all that shit off, my top wisdom teeth dont have enough room to grow in my mouth because apparently my mouth is too small...so once they start growing they'll be pushing on all my other teeth which will cause insane amounts of pain.<br /><br />anywho. <br /><br />more bad stuff.<br /><br />some bitch told my apartment place that me and my friends were going into the club house and smoking and destroying shit in there. so uh, we're all being charged 500 dollars for property damage...either that or get evicted. which uh, where the fuck would we go if that happened huh? yeah. so we'll be paying that shit, even though its not worth that much money. the villa is cunt. <br /><br />they got the police involved with this shit. they're having them dust for finger prints ... and mine happen to be all over every door in the place. im pretty much fucked. i could very well be charged with breaking and entering and property damage. and since i'll be 17 fairly soon i'd be charged as an adult. fuck fuck fuck. they've got the place wired now, camera's and shit everywhere. im not going back though. im in enough shit as it is.<br /><br />i think i just shouldnt have any friends arount here anymore...they keep getting me in more and more shit. <br /><br />i started youth assistance last week. thats basically like therapy..because my school referred me there for "substance abuse, disciplinary problems, and truancy" <br /><br />i've basically been caught with everything. worst luck ever. i need to get out for a weekend. and not with people from around here.<br /><br />whatever.<br /><br />yesterday i said things could always get worse...well i take that shit back, i dont think it could get any worse than this. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:38370 2006-04-10T00:35:40Z 2006-04-10T00:35:40Z wee i can parallel park.<br /><br />i hope i pass the test tomorrow. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:37265 2006-04-01T16:11:42Z 2006-04-01T16:11:42Z so my grandpa's birthday was yesterday...which means today is not my own since im going out with my family.<br /><br />its gonna be weird. every time we all get together someone ends up getting bitched out, its usually me. <br /><br />whatever though. <br /><br />i get good food. so im fine with it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:36918 2006-03-30T21:09:53Z 2006-03-30T21:09:53Z road test. <br /><br />april 10.<br /><br />im excited.<br /><br />less than 2 weeks.<br /><br />FUCK YEAH!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:36687 2006-03-27T10:45:02Z 2006-03-27T10:45:02Z I love shopping with Tonya.<br /><br />we've gotta start hanging out more, now that we both basically have our licenses...yeah. definitely. i'll come visit you as soon as i actually get mine.<br /><br />we'll go shopping XD urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:35987 2006-03-21T01:24:54Z 2006-03-21T01:26:34Z <big><big><big>HAPPY BIRTHDAY TONYA!!</big><br /><br /><small><small>i love you to pieces, and we're gonna celebrate really soon, like this up coming weekend.</big></big></small></small> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:35222 2006-03-11T05:16:18Z 2006-03-11T05:16:18Z well.<br /><br />let me just say, the 69 eyes are amazing live.<br /><br />if you've heard of them before, i say you go and see one of their shows.<br /><br />absolutely amazing.<br /><br />im in awe. <br /><br />honestly. <br /><br />thats all i really have to say right now. <br /><br />this was one of <i>the best shows</i> i have ever been to...and i've been to quite a few. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:34575 2006-03-06T20:08:30Z 2006-03-06T20:08:30Z well.<br /><br />i've officially been fired. <br /><br />oh joy.<br /><br />whatever though.<br /><br />i now have at least some work experience and i do have some money...for what im not sure...its only like 200 dollars. i shouldnt have used up my first paycheck on nothing. whatever. i waste money..thats a well known fact.<br /><br />i've gotta let my mom know that i used my first paycheck...she was pissed off at me for coming home late yesterday and not calling her all day...i hope she doesnt get too pissy about this. <br /><br />whatever people.<br /><br />things suck right now. i need a job. im now unemployed, again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:33097 2006-02-27T21:43:45Z 2006-02-27T21:48:36Z so, tomorrow morning instead of going to church to see becky...i gotta go to the bank with my mom so i can cash my check. <br /><br />fun fun.<br /><br />im kinda pissed off right now ... i got payed today right....and uh, they didnt pay me for my whole first week of working. sure it wasnt that much, i only worked 2 days - 14 hours ... but still you know....i'd get like 80 bucks... i gotta talk to chad about that tomorrow.<br /><br />at the rate im going i'll have a car by july. im excited. my step dad said that if i can save up 2000 dollars, he'll add a thousand and i can get some pretty cheap used car. sure its used, and sure it'll only be like 3000 bucks ... but hey, its my first car. whatever.<br /><br />i seriously have no clue when im getting my license though, i told my mom she's got the month of march to teach me how to parallel park ... which hopefully means that i can get my license before the end of march. <br /><br />jessie's leaving on monday. wow. im going to the airport with her and her parents in the morning, i get to miss school for that. now who wouldnt go and do that? yeahhhh. im going straight to her house after work tomorrow and im spending the night over there. it'll be our last little sleepover thing or whatever. im gonna miss her. a lot. <br /><br />anywho.<br /><br />im exhausted. i just spent 9 hours on my feet. work is ridiculous, but i wouldnt give it up for anything. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:32983 2006-02-24T18:00:41Z 2006-02-24T18:00:41Z wow, i have nothing to say on this update...i dont even know why im doing this right now....im just bored and i have half an hour to waste before work...so yeah...i decided to type some shit up on here.<br /><br />works going ok, liz has me working every day this week...im fucking exhausted from it.<br /><br />well...thats all i can think of to say...im too bored to think right now.<br /><br />i dont wanna go back to school on monday...im too freaking tired, i think i need a whole 'nother week of break...without the work this time. gahhhhhhhhh.<br /><br />god damn it.<br /><br />bye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:31830 2006-02-14T20:02:48Z 2006-02-14T20:02:48Z im really busy this week. <br /><br />its crazy shit.<br /><br />i have school tomorrow 7-2 ... then work 4-8.<br />thursday i have school, and then detention until 5....liz. oh god. im so freaking sorry...i just had to go and do something stupid at school...i cant go to the concert. i have detention. grrrrrrr.<br />then friday i have school and then im working 4-11.<br />saturday work 4-11.<br />sunday work 4-11.<br /><br />i need a break.<br /><br />like right now.<br /><br />on a brighter note however, my mom said i can buy a car. and she also said i could get my license during mid winter break, which is just next week.<br /><br />ANNNDDDDDDDDD avenged sevenfold and coheed & cambria are coming to the cobo arena on may 12th. me and david are definitely going. if anyone would like to join...the more the better. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:31429 2006-02-11T02:33:28Z 2006-02-11T02:33:28Z i got yelled at for smoking in my room.<br /><br />oops.<br /><br />i guess i'll have to quit that shit now. <br /><br />oh well.<br /><br />i have this plan in mind, which i wont tell anyone about until im fully sure that its going to happen. if it doesnt, oh well i guess. but i really hope it happens.<br /><br />i was supposed to go to work today from 5-9 but i didnt, i got sick...i was kinda throwing up everywhere. bleh.<br />i have work tomorrow though...fuck. i gotta wake up pretty early and take out some of my earings...its a bitch. im also not allowed to wear too much make up there...fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. whatever though, its money. its well worth it.<br /><br />i hung out with kenny, josh and david today. im kind of getting annoyed about being around people all the time now but oh well.<br /><br />i need some time off. <br /><br />i want to be alone for like a week straight...but i'd probably get lonely after a while. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:30005 2006-02-01T15:57:53Z 2006-02-01T15:57:53Z so we went to the doctors this morning. <br /><br />tonya was right, i have bronchitis. <br /><br />they gave me some pills to take, they'll only last 5 days though...will i really be better in 5 days? i hope so.<br /><br />even though i like not being in school, i'd rather be not sick and in school right now. being sick is just not pleasant. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lunaticdead9g:29769 2006-01-31T08:42:01Z 2006-01-31T08:42:01Z i am dying. plain and simple.<br /><br />i cant breathe normally without coughing, i cant walk without my joints creaking, i cant think without my head hurting, and last of all, i cant sleep without choking.<br /><br />i am going to die. <br /><br />my fever has stayed at 101.6 for the last 2 days. this annoys me. no matter how many crappy medicines my mother makes me take i am still at the same god damn temperature.<br /><br />someone please make me better? like now...